Thursday, May 24, 2007
End of the School Year thoughts
It's almost hard to believe that I've survived a whole year of school. And by survived, I do mean survived. It was hard going into this year without really anyone i particularly knew at Oregon State, and surprisingly enough I'm shy when you first know me...
My car was broken into three times, my book bag stolen, MP3 player and lots of goodies I probably would've liked to keep.
Luke and I got back together from a break that did us good, I believe.
And school. From the snow storms that my parents wouldn't let me drive in, locking my keys in my car too many times to count and waking up late on a day my final was due (but aceing it) it was a busy year. Busy and lonely for sure. With Jachee away in Arizona and only came down twice for break- it was hard not knowing a sole on campus. But with this next year I'll be living two blocks away from campus and also helping a friend plan a wedding- I'm sure I'll keep myself busy.
Lacy and I re-established, almost, our friendship that seemed to crumble under the pressure of her leaving me behind in high school and me having a boyfriend in her brother. Luke and I have also been seeing his dad and step mom a lot more lately and I've really enjoyed getting to know the side of a family I never really knew about.
With only one year down and three more to go- it seems like there's no light in the tunnel... It's frustrating to know that I'm spending four years of my life doing something that I'm not even sure I'll do at all. I keep telling myself this is for the best, and there's nothing about going to school that feels internally wrong- so this must be what the plan is for right now. I guess we'll see what the next year brings.
My car was broken into three times, my book bag stolen, MP3 player and lots of goodies I probably would've liked to keep.
Luke and I got back together from a break that did us good, I believe.
And school. From the snow storms that my parents wouldn't let me drive in, locking my keys in my car too many times to count and waking up late on a day my final was due (but aceing it) it was a busy year. Busy and lonely for sure. With Jachee away in Arizona and only came down twice for break- it was hard not knowing a sole on campus. But with this next year I'll be living two blocks away from campus and also helping a friend plan a wedding- I'm sure I'll keep myself busy.
Lacy and I re-established, almost, our friendship that seemed to crumble under the pressure of her leaving me behind in high school and me having a boyfriend in her brother. Luke and I have also been seeing his dad and step mom a lot more lately and I've really enjoyed getting to know the side of a family I never really knew about.
With only one year down and three more to go- it seems like there's no light in the tunnel... It's frustrating to know that I'm spending four years of my life doing something that I'm not even sure I'll do at all. I keep telling myself this is for the best, and there's nothing about going to school that feels internally wrong- so this must be what the plan is for right now. I guess we'll see what the next year brings.
